Sunday, October 28, 2012

Don't Leave Me

Don't Leave Me is the title of  my new Portrait I just finished. I'm sad and it's showing in my work. But I guess that's good as I'm getting my emotions out of me and not keeping it bottled up. A little bit of what's going on is my husband and I have come to a path in our marriage where it might not be anymore. It's not that we don't love each other it's sometimes love just isn't enough when their are Lies and Deceits going on. I won't bore everyone with the morbid details. It's just that you can not have a true marriage of two people when there is no trust. Sometimes you think you know someone like a book and you find out different. Then you go through a lot of self doubt yourself. I don't want to get to the point of hate and loathing. Of either him or myself. There is going to be a change for the better, a growth in the relationship that is positive or I have to  close the door. I feel like this man has left me, not physically but in his actions. 

But anyways I have found that through my artwork I can let it out and when I put on my classical music, paint and not dwell on the problem the answers do come. Maybe not staring me right in the face but after awhile I find the peace within myself to clear the cobwebs and come to terms.. Does that happen to anyone else? Is your work your peace also? When you let yourself go into that art trance do you find that sometimes your prayers will be answered. I'm curious.

Well anywho this Gal I created has a lot of my emotions in her. The mediums I used to create her were Acrylics, Watercolor Crayons, Watercolor Pencils, Inks and a new medium I'm using called Clear Tar Gel. I'm in love with it.. You dip your palette knife into it and then dribble it all over. Soo much fun and it looks so cool!! Then if you want you can put a wash over it once it's dry to give it subtle tones of the color your using..In fact I put two washes over it and love the effect. It's hard to see in the picture. 

I'm not sure if she is going to go up for Sale in my Etsy Store.
I might want to frame her and keep her to remind me of how I'm feeling right now. So that years from now I can remember the peace that comes in me when I paint.
Sometimes I'm so involved in trying to get everything so perfect I forget to let go and Let God.

I'm joining Paint Party Friday this week.
A little late as I saw there are tons of Artists
already at the Party...

Head on over there and get a load of some Fabulous Work.

Hey!! Thanks for listening to me rant and thanks
for stopping by..


  1. What a beautifully sad portrait. I hope your painting helps you let go of some of those sad feelings and move on.

  2. Sweet and melancholy Did you want to be like?. Es preciosa. Saludos

  3. Sorry to hear about your tough times...I hope it works out in the best way possible for both of you. The portrait is lovely!

  4. I saw her on Flickr and didn't comment because I was short on time...but she is very sad...and very beautiful...and somewhat resigned. I hope you'll create the rest of your life and that it will be nothing but pure joy.

  5. She is absolutely gorgeous! Love the expression in her eyes!

  6. SO sorry to hear this - it's so bounce back, I am so glad you have your art as an outlet. I pray for healing in this marriage. Your art is beautiful. Send me your address so I can send you a fariy sweetie.

  7. your portrait is so very beautiful. you can feel the emotion you put into this piece. I feel that releasing your own emotions in art is very healing. I'm sorry for your hurt and will keep you in my prayers. Thank you for sharing on PPF.

  8. Hi Robyn,

    I believe art in whatever form of it you delve in helps one process hurt; mentally and physically, without an outlet ,everything one feels and endures is bottled up and harder to release and control making one's tough transition in life that much harder. Your art is soulful and precious, even more to you for it is helping you now with this uneasy time.
    I wish you both the best and will keep you in my prayers.

    Annabelle m^._.^m ~^..^

  9. She's beautiful. I'm glad you have the gift of art to help you process life's issues. May the peace of The Lord be with you and your husband.


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